As I promised, here's my Captain America: The Winter Soldier fan fiction!
My editor (a.k.a. my mom) apologizes for taking a while to read over it and make corrections. Really, I'm surprised. It's not as though she wasn't planning a birthday party or making sure we didn't starve...
Anyway, I'm about to be off on my mission trip!! Which, coincidentally means that Chapter Nine won't be up for another couple weeks. In the meantime, I hope you enjoy Winter Bound!
WARNING: if you have NOT seen Captain America: The Winter Soldier, do NOT read this!!! Spoilers!! (Bonus points to you if you read that in River Song's voice!)
Also, I do not own the characters of Steve Rogers/Captain America, Bucky Barnes/The Winter Soldier, S.H.I.E.L.D or HYDRA. Those belong to the creators of the Marvel comics.
Have a fantastic weekend!
WARNING: if you have NOT seen Captain America: The Winter Soldier, do NOT read this!!! Spoilers!! (Bonus points to you if you read that in River Song's voice!)
Also, I do not own the characters of Steve Rogers/Captain America, Bucky Barnes/The Winter Soldier, S.H.I.E.L.D or HYDRA. Those belong to the creators of the Marvel comics.
Have a fantastic weekend!
~Abigail
“Remember that time I made you ride the Cyclone at
Coney Island?” I asked my childhood friend, Steve, as I stared across the gorge
separating us from the train tracks on the side of the opposite mountain.
“Yeah, and I threw up?” he replied, squinting against
the howling icy wind that gusted in our faces.
My eyes followed the thin wire, our rather treacherous
course across the gap, to the tracks once more. “This isn’t payback, is it?” I
folded my arms, tucking my hands under my shoulder and hoping that he didn’t
notice how badly they shook.
But he grinned and glanced to his men positioned on
the ledge behind us. “Now why would I do that?”
Because you’re
an idiot, I
shook my head and laughed, half from amusement and half from nerves.
My best friend, Steve was more my brother than a
friend, who, thanks to the Super Soldier Serum, was now bigger than me. A lot
bigger. Even though the stupidly brave, skinny guy I knew back home who
couldn’t run away from a fight had changed on the outside, he remained Steve.
And I was thankful for that. On another note, that also meant that he would
continue to seize any opportunity to completely embarrass and otherwise make me
as uncomfortable as possible.
I opened my mouth to tell him what I’d been holding
in since he found me in Schmidt’s base, that I was terrified and broken, when
Gabe Jones interrupted.
“We were right.” His dark hands pressed a pair of
headphones to his ears as he translated what he heard from the radio in German
to English for the rest of us. “Dr. Zola’s on the train. HYDRA dispatcher just
gave him permission to open up the throttle.”
Steve and I turned around and considered the rest of
the Howling Commandos. They were ready and waiting for Steve to give the
signal.
“Wherever he’s going, they must need him bad,” Jones
added.
Falsworth, his scarlet felt cap like a cardinal in
the snow, put down his binoculars and announced, “Then let’s get going because
they’re moving like the devil.”
Steve, Jones, and I lined up on one side of the zip
line. My knees turned to rubber and I stood, paralyzed, and watched as Steve
took a handle from Jacques Dernier and fastened it to the cable. Jacques then
handed one to me and Jones as well.
As I clipped it on, my heart pounded and my rapid
breaths froze in the air.
I had never been fond of heights before, but ever
since my recent run-in with HYDRA, I wasn’t just uncomfortable around them. Constantly
fearful, I felt my confidence daily slipping away. Even my morality seemed
lacking when I discovered I no longer felt guilty each time I pulled the
trigger and ended another life. What did
they do to me? The question had crossed my mind many times before, but
always, it remained unanswered.
Then Steve shouted, “We only got about a ten second
window. You miss that window, we’re bugs on a windshield.”
I swallowed and tried to keep down the bile that
slowly rose in my throat.
The train was in sight now, a black, speeding bullet
through the mountains. My hands trembled violently and I squeezed the handles,
the only thing that would keep me from plunging into the canyon. Steve put his
toes on the snowy edge of the cliff and looking over his shoulder, he smiled at
me.
I smiled back, though it was really more of a
grimace. He didn’t know I was scared. He couldn’t.
“Mind the gap!” Falsworth yelled against the wind.
Behind us, Timothy Dugan added, “Better get moving,
bugs!”
Wonderful, I grumbled internally. Because that’s exactly the thing I need
right now. Images of insects spattered on the ground and glass of an
automobile flashed before my eyes and I pushed them away. For what I needed to
do, I had to be in complete control.
Jacques shouted something in French, and Steve’s
feet left the ledge. Shifting my wobbly legs to the edge of the cliff, I
focused on Steve yards before me and when Jacques spoke again, I leaned forward
and felt gravity suck me from the safety of the hard ground. My stomach dropped
and I held on for dear life as the momentum increased, pulling me away. We
approached the train at lightning speed, it was almost below us.
Then Steve let go and dropped onto the slippery
roof. I saw the steel below my boots before I closed my eyes, held my breath, and
opened my fingers. Though brief, the sensation of falling remained long after I
landed on the roof. The thud behind me let me know that Jones, too,
successfully made the drop.
Ahead, Steve stood and walked quickly across the top
of the speeding train. I inhaled deeply, rose, and cautiously followed his
perilous path along the roof and down a ladder to one of the outer doors.
According to plan, Jones remained on the roof and continued our mission from
above.
Steve slid the door open effortlessly, and we slipped
inside the car.
It was empty except for the shelves housing dozens
of black cases that lined the walls and center of the oblong room. Reaching to
my back, I withdrew my submachine gun. Steve armed himself with his handgun and
hastily led the way to the opposite door.
Curiosity probed at me, and turning aside, I
lingered to examine one of the cases. More than likely, it held HYDRA weapons. But of what kind?
Too late, I realized I made a severe error when the
door separating me from Steve slid shut, trapping us on opposite sides. I ran
to the door and almost reached it when I heard a noise behind me.
Raising my gun, I wheeled about and fired at the HYDRA
Nazi trying to sneak up behind me. Another behind him fired, and I ducked
behind a stack of cases as bullets flew over my head.
When the bullets ceased momentarily, I peeked over
the top of the stack and fired before ducking behind the cases once more. I did
this at least two more times before the trigger elicited an empty click.
Discarding the submachine gun on the floor, I pulled out my handgun, cocked it,
and then rose. My target in sight, I pulled the trigger as many times as
possible while moving from one side of the car to the other, finding momentary
refuge between the corner of the room and the end of one of the shelves.
They sent a steady line of lethal rain past me, and
I in turn popped around the side of the shelf just long enough to fire. This
exchange went on for several heartbeats. But then I pulled the trigger, my
handgun clicked, and no bullet appeared.
I pressed myself against the wall and squeezed my
eyes shut. My heart pounded in my ears as I heard the HYDRA soldiers draw
closer, their guns firing rapidly. A few seconds more and I wouldn’t be alive at
all.
Then beside me the door slid open a fraction and
Steve’s gloved hand appeared around the side. Clenched in his fingers was his
gun, which he tossed to me. Gratefully, I caught it. We made brief eye contact,
and I nodded.
The remaining HYDRA Nazi hid behind the center
shelf. The other I killed moments before in the crossfire.
Steve forced the door open, darted forward, and hit
a long case with his shield. The heavy box slid across the smooth surface of
the shelf and toward the Nazi. When he jumped into the open to avoid the projectile,
I was ready and fired.
“I had him on the ropes,” I said, breathless, as the
enemy fell to the ground.
“I know you did.”
The high-pitched whine of a HYDRA gun filled the air
from the doorway behind us.
Before I could react, Steve pulled me behind him and
shouted, “Get down!”
The entire car filled with pale blue light as the
energy beam exploded from the barrel of the high-powered gun. The beam
ricocheted off the curved metal of Steve’s shield and blew a monstrous, gaping
hole in the side of the train.
Steve was propelled into the opposite wall from the
blast, but his shield skidded across the floor and stopped near my boots.
Wary of the spacious hole to my right, I reached for
the shield with trembling hands, fervently hoping it would somehow bestow upon
me the courage and bravery of Captain America.
It didn’t. Even so, I held it before me and fired at
the Nazi. My bullets did nothing against the heavy black armor he wore.
Again, the intensive whine filled the air and the
energy beam shot out, this time at me. The pulsing light struck the shield with
a force I could not handle. It swept me off my feet and for one terrifying
moment, I was weightless until the force sucked me back and out of the train.
It was as though someone punched me in the stomach, a sensation I was all too
familiar with, except intensified. Worse. Much worse. My body slammed into the
debris that had once been the wall, slowing my ejection long enough for me to
grab hold of a long handrail.
I clung to the handle and tried not to look at the
ground several hundred feet below my boots. The tracks rushed by directly below
my feet, and beyond that, the ground dropped off hundreds of feet. Near the
center of the gorge, a river snaked along, a dark crack in the white abyss.
I flailed in the icy wind that stung my face and
numbed the rest of my body and I fought to keep my grip on the pole. The train jolted
suddenly, propelling me against the cold steel of the train. At the same
moment, my left shoulder was wrenched from its socket and I cried out in both
pain and fear.
“Bucky!” Steve
leaned around the side of the gaping hole in the wall of the train and began to
slide around the outside. “Hang on!” he yelled.
When he reached the end of the rail, he reached out
to me. “Grab my hand!”
The next few seconds seemed to slow down. My hands
slid across the handle, gradually nearing Steve’s outstretched hand. The metal
creaked and began to detach itself from the train.
“No!” Steve cried.
This is it, I thought, terrified. This is the end of the line.
As if to confirm my fearful suspicions, the handle
groaned, and then snapped.
Reaching out for him, I screamed and plummeted into
the icy canyon. I released the pole and waived my arms about wildly in a mad
attempt to catch a hold of anything to stop my rapid descent. Then my left hand
grasped something hard; stable, in the millisecond I had contact with it.
Instinctively, my fingers closed around it.
That was a mistake.
Searing pain unlike anything I’d ever experienced
shot up from my shoulder, but at first I was too disoriented and alarmed to
understand what happened.
The wind rushed past me as I continued to fall, the rocky
cliff-side a foreign, dark blur beside me.
Closing my eyes, I prepared myself for the sudden
end to my fall and my life.
When I hit the snow, I heard the crack and felt many
bones in my body shatter. Not all, but enough that I thought my body broke into
a thousand pieces. Agony consumed me. I couldn’t breathe. The little air I
retained during my fall had been violently expelled from my lungs the minute I
hit the ground. Gasping, I stared at the pale gray sky.
Snow fell in gentle flakes from the endless clouds.
It would have been beautiful, save for the excruciating pain I was enduring.
Suddenly like a lightning bolt, it hit me. Why am I still alive? How…?
In the distance a dog barked, and faintly I heard
men shouting in German.
Nazis! I panicked. But then a
darker name entered my mind. A name I feared with every fiber of my being. HYDRA.
I struggled to rise and find shelter in which to
hide myself, and that was when I realized that something was catastrophically
wrong. I couldn’t move or feel my left arm at all. Believing I dislocated it
when I fell, I raised my head with much difficulty.
At the sight of the scarlet snow and the bloody
stump that had once been my shoulder, I retched and then choked. Wracking spasms
seized me, and I lay violently convulsing in the crimson snow. Unable to
control my movements. Unable to breathe. Darkness crept in around the edges of
my vision; I was losing too much blood.
The frequent barks and yips of the dogs drew ever
nearer, though they sounded like they were miles away. The last thing I saw before
I succumbed to the consuming and inviting blackness were the vague outlines of
two men carrying large guns.
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When I awoke, yellow lights flickered in the ceiling
above me, casting the sickly color on the grungy walls. There were no windows
at all, leading me to believe I was being held underground or near the center
of an extensive building. Either case, I was in deep trouble.
My head ached, as did my entire body, the muscles of
my arms and legs stiff and unused. I sat in some kind of chair; thick metal
bands bound my arms to the armrests. As far as I could tell, I was the only
person in the room.
Waiting whatever was to come, I wiggled my fingers
in an attempt to bring feeling and motion into the rest of my body. Suddenly I
stopped. I moved first the fingers of my right hand, and then tentatively did
the same to those belonging to my left.
I lost my arm.
I lost my arm. I mulled over possible
explanations and could find no valid conclusion. Was it a hallucination? But here I was, strapped to a chair, very
much alive with two arms.
The muscles in my neck bulged and constricted when I
lifted my head, like I hadn’t used them in quite some time.
Fearful of what I might see, I looked first at
my right arm. It was intact, the flesh pale, but healthy, and the rippling
muscle beneath it strong. I sucked in a large amount of air and held my breath
as I turned my head to the left.
I stared transfixed at the bands of silver metal
that had been fitted perfectly together to form my left arm. From what I could
tell, I controlled it as flawlessly as I did my own. But it was cold and
foreign. At the place where metal and flesh met, a network of livid red scars began
where my captors or my saviors melded the arm to my flesh and ran several
inches across my chest and probably my back.
I was conscious when they attached it to what
remained of my left shoulder. Vaguely, I recalled the procedure, the
experiments, and the unbearable agony I suffered to attain such a thing. The
memories weren’t something I would have preferred to retain; I wanted them to
disappear, to bury themselves deep into the recesses of my mind and never
resurface again. But like so many other memories of torture, I knew they would
float just beneath the surface waiting to catch me off-guard with the horrors.
Just then the
iron cage door swung open and in stepped a slender, clean-shaven man wearing
circular glasses and a pristine white lab coat. Accompanying him were four
other men and women I assumed to be scientists and doctors judging by their
apparel.
“Ah, you are awake,” the main doctor said in a heavy
Russian accent.
The words would not come when I opened my mouth, nor
did my thick tongue comply with my request.
Meanwhile the man crossed the room and stuck a
needle in the soft skin of my inner elbow. Deep red blood filled the container
at the top of the syringe. A female doctor scribbled something down in a notepad
and the others busied themselves with chemicals and test tubes, and numerous
filing cabinets in the corners of the room.
“Speaking may be difficult. You have been asleep…”
he chuckled, though I didn’t understand the joke, “for a long time.”
I shook my head, my only form of communication with
him until my tongue and mouth loosened. Long, unkempt locks of brown hair fell
over my eyes with the motion.
Just how long
was I asleep for my hair, my mouth twitched and I felt the stiff beginnings of a beard on
my chin and upper lip. And beard! To grow
like this?
There was something he wasn’t telling me just yet. I
was determined to discover what secret he kept hidden from me.
“Consider yourself lucky,” he continued, filling
another small tube with my blood. “Any other man would’ve died; whatever he
pumped into you saved you when you fell.”
I swallowed and managed to rasp, “Who?”
“Doctor Zola. True, you may have lost one arm, but
this,” he tapped the cold metal of my prosthetic limb. “This is far superior. I
must congratulate him on his success…” his voice trailed off.
I flexed every muscle in my body I could, and the
bonds tightened around my forearms and biceps. Names and faces flicked through
my head, some pleasant and some that caused my blood to boil. Zola. Schmidt. HYDRA. Soldier. Steve.
Steve!
“Where is he?” I demanded, my eyes boring holes into
the doctor’s.
“Who?” the doctor inquired.
“Steve. Steven Rogers.”
“Who is that?” he asked.
Exasperated, I lay my head back against the headrest
and whispered in a voice dry and cracked, “Captain America.”
A spark of recognition flickered though his sharp
eyes. “Captain America?” he scoffed. “He died almost a decade ago stopping HYDRA’s
German division from conquering the world.”
His words
struck me like a thunderclap and I sunk into a foggy silence. A conscious coma
from which I did not want to wake.
Steve was dead. He died ten years ago.
“How long was I asleep?” I finally asked, my voice
soft and broken.
The doctor sat on a stool and glanced at the
ceiling, calculating something in his head.
“When Schmidt’s men found you shortly after your
plunge from the train, you had lost a lot of blood from your injury- too much,
in fact. They couldn’t risk losing you, more importantly, what you could
become. So they put you to sleep until they could transport you to one of HYDRA’s
technology labs where you, ah, acquired this not too long ago under Zola’s
supervision,” he tapped my arm. “You have been in our cryogenics lab until
recently when recent events in our Cold War with the Americans demanded the
need of your… experience and, shall we say, capabilities.
“I want to run tests. Stand, please,” he pressed a
button and the rings around my arms sprung open soundlessly. I raised my hands
and examined them side-by-side.
Faster than I ever recalled moving before, I leapt
up from the chair and swung the metal arm in a swift arc toward his head. His
skull cracked loudly and caved in where the lethal fist connected with tender
flesh and soft bone.
A woman screamed as he crumpled to the ground with a
moan and lay in a dismantled heap on the cement floor. Blood welled around his
head from the wound I inflicted and his eyes, which had rolled back into his
head, were white. He was dead.
The room erupted into instantaneous chaos; the
remaining doctors tripped and stumbled over each other in an attempt to run
from me. Ignoring them, I ran for the door and yanked at the bars with every
ounce of strength I possessed, but it remained locked tight, trapping me in the
cage.
Alarms sounded, blaring loudly over speakers, and
two dozen soldiers filled the hall, their guns pointed at my chest. They were
dressed like the HYDRA agents I encountered years ago, only different. Better.
I froze and slowly raised my hands above my head in
reluctant submission. The people behind me quieted and I heard their movements
stop.
A man walked casually into the center of the
hallway. He ordered something in Russian, and his men stood down. The man,
obviously their leader, was well-dressed in an expensive black suit, with his
fair hair combed back neatly. His demeanor was relaxed, critical, and
controlling. I hated him.
As he drew nearer, he smiled cruelly. “Please sit.”
Realizing I could no nothing else and that escape
was impossible, I reluctantly obeyed and returned to the chair.
My eyes never left the Russian as he entered a code
into the outside key pad and swung open the creaking door. Stepping aside, he
waited until all his men had filed into the room before entering himself.
“Dear me, Sergeant Barnes.”
At the sound of my name, my eyes widened in
surprise.
“Yes,” he nodded. “I know who you are. You were upset;
I understand but really, was it necessary to kill Dr. Kozlov?” he eyed the body
lying in the scarlet pool on the cold floor.
“I wouldn’t have killed him if it hadn’t been for
the metal arm you gave me. Oh, and thank you for that,” I retorted dryly. “How
do you know me?”
“Why,” he stood over me, the wolf before the prey, “Aside
from your maniacal shouting of your name and serial number, I recognized you
from films taken during World War II. Sergeant James Buchannan Barnes, part of
Captain America’s Howling Commandos and Captain America’s second in command,”
he applauded in a tone of mock admiration.
When he mentioned Steve my heart turned to lead,
sinking lower than before. Something in my expression must have changed enough
for him to notice, for he bent closer and said, “I see Dr. Kozlov told you
about his heroic death. That must have been upsetting.” He flipped several
switches and again, the bonds closed over my arms and I was their prisoner once
more.
Something
whirred to life behind me, and a helmet-like contraption began its slow descent
to my head. As it drew ever closer, my heart began to beat uncontrollably.
Every muscle in my body tensed and my chest heaved rapidly with each ragged
breath.
“Don’t be frightened,” I heard him whisper when the
thing sealed over my cranium and half of my face. I barely caught him add, “In
a few moments you won’t remember this ordeal, or any for that matter.
“Wipe him. He must leave everything and everyone
behind.”
Then blue electric pulses spider-webbed across my
vision and pain unlike I had ever experienced before, far worse than losing an
arm, shot into my brain like a thousand knives. Automatically I screamed,
“Sergeant James Buchannan Barnes. 32557-” but then something hard was shoved in
my mouth, almost gagging me and with a strangled cry, I fell silent.
I writhed and strained, twisted in the chair,
kicking anything and anyone I could in a mad attempt to break free.
Memories flooded my mind in a tidal wave of the
images I held most dear and those I dreaded.
I was walking with Steve, stupidly brave, skinny
Steve, out of an alley behind a movie theater. Then he faded and I was walking
alone. What I was doing in the alley, I had no idea. Then I was in the HYDRA
lab, beaten and tortured. Without hope. Without friends. The prisoners rioted,
and somehow I managed to escape. I was on the outside of the train, hanging on.
Trying desperately to climb back inside. I reached out, but there was no one to
help me. Then the inevitable happened and I fell with no one to catch me. No
one to care if I died.
This is the
end of the line, Pal,
jeered a mocking voice inside my head.
An extreme sense of longing, heartache, and intense
sorrow erupted from the pit of my heart and flowed like molten lava in my
veins.
I let loose one final bellow of desperation and
anguish, then everything went black.
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Sickly yellow lights flickered above me when I
awoke. The pale walls, concrete floors, armed soldiers, and the man standing
nearby, his arms folded across the chest of his suit, all seemed vaguely
familiar.
I was in a chair, bound with thick bands that fitted
tightly around my forearms and biceps. One arm was normal and drenched in cold
sweat, as were my face and torso. The other arm was silver metal. Somehow, that
revelation didn’t bother me, though something deep inside my head told me it
should. Though foreign, I couldn’t remember when it had become a part of me; it
seemed I possessed it my entire life.
My hair dripped salty sweat into my eyes and it was
several seconds before I opened them again and saw the large rusty blood stain
on the concrete. Who died? I
questioned silently. They killed someone.
Am I next? Will they kill me as well?
More shocking than that, I suddenly realized my
memories began when I woke up in the chair. Anything prior to that was
nonexistent, locked away somewhere deep. I didn’t even know my name.
I stared at the doctors, scientists, and soldiers in
the room, not knowing what else to do. Nothing made sense.
The well-dressed man slowly smiled cruelly, and then
radioed another person over the communication system.
Shortly afterward, yet another man entered the room,
surrounded by twelve armed guards, each dressed in black bulletproof vests,
pants and carrying military rifles. This man, like the first, wore a costly
suit heavily decorated with medals. The first man saluted him.
The leader’s eyes narrowed as he viewed me with
great skepticism.
“Who is he?” he questioned in Russian, and somehow,
I understood.
“It is not who he is, or was, that matters, but what
he will become that you should concern yourself with.”
Leaning my head back on the hard chair, I delved
into the confines of my mind, leaving the room far behind me.
I felt nothing.
No love. No joy.
How could I when I was consumed with such hatred,
anger, and longing as that which consumed me?
Even so, I could not ask why. Somehow it was
silently understood and accepted that I could ask no question at all. Soon they
would assign me to whatever mission they chose.
How I knew that, I couldn't comprehend.
But whatever the mission, no matter the cost, I
would fulfill and complete it or die in the attempt.
"Raduysya GIDRA," I mumbled, and cruel smiles crept along both men's faces. Hail HYDRA.
"Raduysya GIDRA," I mumbled, and cruel smiles crept along both men's faces. Hail HYDRA.
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
Fifty years later, I stand alone on a catwalk-like
bridge in a military helicarrier. Several thousand feet below my boots lay the
roads of Washington D.C. and the smoking pile of rubble that marked the place
where the proud Triskelion, the home of S.H.I.E.L.D., had stood. Save for the
breathy whispers of the stealth engines that propel the helicarrier higher into
the clouds, the glass dome of the control center is utterly silent. Then he
appears on the opposite end of the bridge.
Tall, strong, uniformed in the colors of his flag and country, and armed with a circular shield, he is by any definition a soldier. But he doesn't possess the stature and manner of a regular soldier; he is far superior to the man I've previously and recently encountered.
Tall, strong, uniformed in the colors of his flag and country, and armed with a circular shield, he is by any definition a soldier. But he doesn't possess the stature and manner of a regular soldier; he is far superior to the man I've previously and recently encountered.
I raise my gaze, and our eyes lock, mine display
steely determination, and his eyes fill with untold sorrow. As I stare him
down, something about him reminds me of something. Someone I lost long ago.
But do I care? No.
I am angry.
I am confused.
I am broken.
And I am dangerous.
I don’t know who I used to be, but I know what I am
now.
I am a ghost. A weapon.
I am the Winter Soldier.
And that man is my mission.